The second quarter of the school year was an emotional rollercoaster. A lot of crappy stuff happened and I got fed up with too much I could handle and I hurled.
When I went to Cagayan De Oro City for the YES Planning Conference, I had no idea what was in store for me. I had no idea I’d get bent. The National Federation of Supreme Student Government Officers election was held there, and we had no clue.
I never expected the election to happen then and there. It caught me really off-guard, which led to a bit of my downfall. I was targeting the national presidency, but I guess God had other plans for me for I was the auditor. But I not being president was not the most intense thing that happened there, it was me breaking. I had a panic-attack and I did not know what was happening. It was inexplicable.
The reason on why I broke is still a big mystery for me today. But my other friends in the CDO said it was probably because of the too-much pressure and stress that was laid upon my back. If you sleep at three in the morning and wake up at six for three consecutive days and on the fourth day you find out that you are about to elect the NFSSG Officers, which is a very huge thing, at 10 PM and they evaluate you until three in the morning and they announce the result at four you’d get stressed too, right? That, not including the feeling of self-doubt and if you really deserve to be there is enough to format your mind. As I said, no exact words can explain the feeling I felt.
The experience definitely was one of the most intense I’ve had in a long time. But thanks to the life-changing experience, I learned a lot. “You should never get too serious. You should loosen up. You need to remember that life is only a game that needs to be enjoyed. For if you don’t have fun along the way, what is the point of living in the first place?”